This has been a hard week of praying and waiting and feeling extremely stressed. The checkbook balance has been nearly down to nothing. I’m putting charges for the ENT Chuuk trip on my credit card – the team leaves next week and we still don’t have the contract funds. With no money in the bank, bills mounting, my stress has been at an all time high. And all through this, I constantly hold onto the fact that God has never let us down. I remember that all things have always worked out for good, and that His timing is perfect.
So, although there is worry, there is also an acknowledgement that I must wait patiently for the Lord. “But Lord, it is so hard not to panic – the waiting is so hard”, I mused. I started to think about the Israelites who saw great and miraculous wonders and the next day would complain and panic. They were scared and terrified. Although they saw God work in their behalf, they couldn’t quite grasp that God was their Father, who would protect and care for them. Even for me, who has seen many of His miracles, it’s hard to truly walk with this confidence. How could God really care day in and day out, night and day, minute by minute about me?
Well for one thing, it’s not about me – it’s about His work. This is His work and I am His servant.
“Worry weighs a person down.” Proverbs 12:25
How true, how true. I have felt so weighed down this past week. Sleep has been troubled and my heart has been heavy. Why do I go down the worry path? Lord, teach me to go down that path of faith when I come to that fork in the road!
Hold onto to Jesus and know for sure that He is God – He loves me and will not forsake me.
“So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you. Deuteronomy 31:6
written by Jacque Spence